its been a year for me and my beani - sabrina.
we are extremly happy and i hope it lasts.
im finally going to get my art off the ground with help this winter/fall.i kno its short but im tired.
work is getting so difficult to handle i think it might be best to look for something else.
much love
night night..or is it morning

hugs

Holy Mutha effing shit has it been forever since i left a blog or what!!
Since feb to September.. nothing really happend.
I worked at lofthouse cookies (anyone reading this ever ate them? message me please lol)
That was an okay place. I started there in April and i worked both subway and lofthouse for a month and just worked lofthouse after that cause i was getting more hours.
I moved from one apartment to another one. Met a kid named Ricky who i let live with me cause he had no where else to go.
He screwed things over with that and in september i met Sabrina who is my life.
She means everything to me. We started out kinda fast yeah.. day one met.. second day together and if i wasnt at her house she was at mine. She worked on my line that i was label operator on (she cased) and then i moved in with her maybe 2 weeks after we met.
i didnt have too many places to go since ricky caused enough problems with the landlord i just moved in with her and we been together ever since.
My mom had surgery on her knee and is recovering nicely.
In June i got in a car accident and totalled my car that i had only a month. It wasnt my fault though. So now i have an SUV. Ford Escape. its a really nice car.
im without a job right now though. September i left lofthouse and i worked at another subway for about 3 weeks. Not a good place to work at that one.
And i been job hunting ever since.
Right now me and Sabrina are still together and im living with my mom til i can get on my feet and things get financially better.
It seems weird but i kno it will work.

My mother does not approve of this relationship at all but i dont really care. its my love and its my life.
Im going to be 22 in 4 days. I think i can make choices on my own. I will just have to suffer concequences.

My friends are changing again.
Amanda has a new fling she is determined to marry. Kudos..
Brandee and her man are doing well.
I feel sad for Ash and the things she is going through. me and her arent as close anymore either.

Honey and Robert, who are Sabrina's friends, are ok friends. Someone to talk to and hang out and such.
Their daughter Daisy is the cutest thing aside from (Harper) Mkenzy.

I want to go to school for Buisness and Photography since i seem to do well i want to be able to sell my art framed and make profit from my talent.

In due time though im sure things will work out and everything will be ok. I just got to work hard and play often lol.

I have posted quite a few new pictures and would love for you to see them and comment at any you would like.
thanks so much for your time..
<3 Tera

now i have the internet at home.
so this is how things have been....

At my dads, things went from bad to worse, to hell. fast. being pregnant didnt help any at all.
me and my dad dont talk anymore and i dont really care right now. i take it a day at a time cause part of me still wants to have a relationship with him, but ive tried to for so long.. so many years. and he hasnt even wanted it until now that i turned away. i cant put myself through his shit anymore. he made his choice and i made mine.

Kami's house didnt work either. for different reasons that i dont even want to touch basis on. just didnt work.

i moved back in with my mom around thanksgiving. been here since. just barely got the internet though. i had my baby, followd with my plans of adoption. where she can be given the world and more.
The family didnt arive from canada to utah for 3 days afer she was born so i got to hold her and give her that bond with a mommy that babies need instead of leaving her in the nursery. everything i did, i did for her. i didnt care how it would make me feel, or how hard it would be. all i knew is whats best for her and thats all i cared about the whole pregnancy. Its not her fault her daddy bounced. its not fair for me to live off the state to raise a child when im not fully ready. her future. her life. needs the best.
i still cry when i look at babies, hear a certain song, wear the shirt i wore into the hostpital, when i look at the pics soemtimes... im healing. but i know my choice was right.

last night i got intoxicated with josh and tasha lol
the night before that i went with josh to the bar. met tons of people i cant even remember cause there was so many. i didnt drink cause i was drivin.

tonight i was supposed to go to manson... but it got postponed to tomorrow. im excited. me sharon and josh are goin i kno that much. i guess ryan will be there with his fiance... i realized last night how fast he goes through girls and so glad im not a part of that anymore. i got a good life going for me right now. we had a good time we had a good love but now im moved on and ive seen and have found better. not with anyone.. but i kno better guys. ones i deserve to have and one who i think deserves to be with me but u kno.. lol

yippee. and i got my car back. im moved out. and i got the internet.
still working. and still livin.

not too much to complain about.

1. Sorry its been so long. Its been hectic with no internet.
2. I found i can use my mobile internet to access da. woot!
3. I cant read all deviations on here cause i guess over 100 and my phone cant fit it in its memory.
4. I promise to update everything as soon as i get my internet going. Pics poetry journals crushes my ex everything. So please be looking for that in the future.

And lastly.... Other then everything i mentioned this are going alright.
Happy 420 to everyone and to anyone whos tokin it up.. Take a hit for me. Parties are going to be off the hook this weekend and well worth the hangovers im sure.
This is alright for now. Its late and i gotta be up way early. And i have nothing to ramble about right now.

|love ya bitches|<3